Return 恍惚

Paper-plate lithography prints, series of fifteen works/Each composed of 1–3 plates/Approx. 17 × 12 cm each Project: Blank Film is a more intimate body of work. It begins with the sudden death of a close friend and a roll of film he left behind—exposed, yet entirely undeveloped. Four years after the incident, the ongoing process of making and exhibiting becomes a way to respond to and reflect upon death, memory, and emotion: memories that are at times continuous, at times piercingly vivid, at times suspended in a haze. Through this project, I also question time itself—what is lost after death, and what, if anything, remains. At certain moments, or within particular spaces, I am suddenly returned to the sensations I felt while photographing in the midst of it all. More and more, I sense that memory adheres to space itself. Each time I revisit certain places, I am reminded of him—now absent. In those moments of disorientation, I instinctively lift my camera and record the scenes that trigger these fleeting returns. Shot on black-and-white film, the images are repeatedly reproduced through paper-plate lithography, gradually becoming blurred and fractured. Their deterioration mirrors the instability and ruptures of memory itself. The fifteen sets of images each consist of a different number of plates, echoing the uneven weight of remembrance—its shifting intensities, its pauses and urgencies, its varying densities and fades.

紙平版，共十五件，每件1-3版數，約17x12cm 《白片計畫》為較具私密性的創作計畫，內容以年輕好友的突然死亡與其所留下的一捲「已拍過卻毫無顯影」的底片出發，在事件發生後四年的現在，透過進行中的創作與展覽計劃去回應與探討死亡、記憶與情感，那種時而連續、時而深刻、時而恍惚的記憶，同時探問著時間以及死亡後所失去與所留下的。 在某些時間或空間，我總會突然地回想起這整件事時的所拍攝下的感受，很多時候總覺得回憶是附著在空間上的，每當重回到某些地點，就會想起已經不在的他，我總會隨手拿起相機拍下那些令我恍惚想起的畫面，以黑白底片拍攝的影像隨著紙平版畫重複複製後漸漸模糊、破裂的狀態，就如同回憶的不確定性與斷裂，15組影像各有不同的版數，就像是這段記憶也有不同的輕重、緩急、濃淡。